being real

Like I posted last week I told the senior pastor I would pray this week about considering a ministry position at his church. I have not gotten any clear “sign” or word from God either way regarding this. Part of me thinks that I should knock on the door and if it opens it will be a clear sign that that is where the Lord wants me to be. My wife told me that staying put would be “safe” and leaving would take some risk and get me out of my comfort zone. I think she feels that we getting out of our “comfort zone” would be a good thing. Is my wife giving me a sign that she wants to move? However, I’m not sure my current position is necessarily in my comfort zone.

Lord, I really need you to make this clear to me.

My current stress level rides on having these things done in March.

1. 3 papers due for a class for my denomination in two weeks!
2. Preaching on Palm Sunday

I am so proud of my daughter and my wife. About a year ago they had an art show of all the artwork my daughter had made. It was a lot of fun. This time she did it again, only this time she had an art sale called “Art for Asia”. We made flyers and handed them out at church this past week.
So last night about 30 people came, bought kid art, and donated to Tsunami relief. We will be giving the funds to World Vision It is wonderful to grow a world changer.

Now here is a good idea. I hope this works, and I hope they keep this around when my kids are ready for college.

I found this through Rudy C blog.

This is going to be tough. My other blog is 2 and a half years old, and over that time I have establish some new online friends and new readers. I think when I shut down the old blog I can let in some of those people that don’t know me in person know where I am now. Maybe not. I’m not sure. It is difficult to write a blog when no one is reading. It feels kind of lonley. It will take time, just like it did with the other blog.

Back in October I was looking for possibly another ministry position in a large church. I have been in my current ministry for about 7 years and I thought the Lord may be leading me to make a change. The interview process went great and I really liked the Senior Pastor. It looked like I was going to visit and check out the church. However, I got an email one day from the senior pastor saying them have chose one of their lay leaders fill the position. He said if this person would have not come forward I could have been their guy. We were disappointed; however we felt that God may have had a better plan.

Four months past and this morning I get a call from the same pastor. It looks like a different position has opened up and I believe he wants me to consider it. However, at this point I am not sure I am all that enthused about the position. Is this sort of position something I am really called to? The position is similar; however it is a bit different too. I don’t want to completely shut the door on this opportunity. At the same time I don’t want them to think I am really interested and then find out that I was right all along, that I am not called to this sort of ministry.

The thing that is so perplexing is that my wife believes that she has had “signs” and confirmations that this city is the place that God may be calling us.

I need to pray. I need direction Lord.

Today I am blown away with how much scripture my 5 year old has memorized so far this year. She has memorized more than me this year. That is kind of cool and kind of sad all at the same time.

Lord, may the Word that is being planted in her not only stay in her mind but also invade her heart so that she can draw from it and grow in the future.
My wife and I are praying, what to do for school for our five year old next year. The options we are weighing are home schooling, half day kindergarden, or all-day kindergarden at a pretty neat charter school.

Lord please give us direction and make it clear to us.

Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfall;
all your waves and breakers have swept over me.

Psalm 42: 7
As I read this tonight I recall a time when I stood under a waterfall. The one then I remember about it is that I could barely stand under the power of the water. The same goes as I once walked out into the Mediterranean Sea. I could barely stand up against the power.

“God, allow me to let go and allow your waterfalls and waves swept over me and carry me to the places you want to go.”

Here is the beginning of a new blog for me. I have another, however so many people I know in person read my blog and it has prevented me from writing things that are deep within my heart. I hope I am able to be real on this site. I hope I am able to bounce ideas off this site and wrestle with the things that are happening in my life. As a minister of the gospel I often feel like I need to guard myself and pick and choose what I want to share and with whom. I am hoping this will be a place where I can share my joys, my fears, my worries, my frustrations and my dreams. I hope I can be the real me. I don’t think this site will be very flashy, but I hope it will be real. Thanks for listiening.